The remaining time of 6th semester

It's been a month ever since my birthday (20 years old), and so much things happen around me. Life is not like I usually had. And I'm in 6th semester (final half of the 3rd year), a lot of stuff I have to struggle more, especially not to fail any more courses I'm currently have now.

And I realized there's a lookalike of someone I used to fawn over, all the memory fragments seem to piece back the nostalgia ;A; Seriously, I need to forget about him and focus on studies.

.........what the hell I'm writing?!

No more turning back from the past.

New semester = Final year (hopefully)

Yep, the new semester already started. I'm a 3rd year now. And I feel quite crappy in a few times due to the courses I took (it's seven, for goodness sake!) Again, I repeat my Calculus paper D: Plus with 3 Chemistry subjects, oh darn. I hope I can graduate on time so I'm not going to break the promise I made 3 years ago.

Novel writing...

Done the synopsis, but still have no ideas how to write yet. Even though it's an adaptation from my own manga =.=

I feel like screwed up and nervous

The main reason? Is exam results will be out tomorrow. And I 'm just realized that I screwed out in some papers, including programming and calculus. Aw shucks.

Damn, I'm totally worried about this seriously since I'm almost to graduating, if something happens when I failed a paper or two........

A step to the happiness

=3 Accepting new things (just pick the beneficial ones)
=3 Realize that no one is perfect
=3 Taking a step one by one
=3 Staying yourself
=3 Look ahead to the future and never turning back
=3 Letting go

Almost all I can do on the list, except the last one. The real reason is if I do let go of something precious, I would end up making someone sad or utterly breaking my heart. Besides, when you've already used to it quite a long time, when the time comes to release it........ yes, I would cry deep from the inside and put myself a mask to conceal the pain. Two possibilities: Being an extreme doormat, smiling always or distancing myself from the others in order to prevent the same thing happen to me.