Final resolution before moving to the new year...

=3 Move on to the new leaf
=3 Try not to get picked up too much (or known as Hair-Trigger Temper)
=3 Deal with my other selves (Kagura, Sakura, Kisa, Agito......)
=3 Stop being selfish (if I do have one)
=3 Strive better on the final semester
=3 Get what you desire most in degree
=3 Making up with all my friends
=3 Admit that I do love someone ( =.= )
=3 Reduce my life points in half
=3 Continue on my novel writing
=3 Manage the mood swings
=3 Stop thinking that "I'm lonely"
=3 Spend wisely
=3 Put a better relationship with my parents
=3 Draw a new manga/work on the current series, Unlucky Sixteen
=3 stop despairing

Back to my past.... (huh?)

Hm, seems like I keep reminiscing through my past life, and it sucks. I do have my jerkass side, and it's not that pretty. So, this might be my 'tsun' side (either Kagura or Sakura) and I tend to lash out a bit too much.

Gah, I have to control myself next time Dx

Yeah, you heard me right? Go away.

If I'm the type who always stubborn, let me go. If those words meant is care and concern, I listened it silently. Don't even think that I never care those words. Just because I have such coldness from outside, you simply throw out every single word the way you like. Mean and uncaring, I dare you to say it many times before I do get overly serious and killing my old self. Do you like it? Oh yes, you will love it when I turned into a complete monster.

And yes, I do get moody in a few times. I would write to vent my anger away. I wish I could put this into a novel I'm currently attempted to write.

If something like this do happen to me........ O_________________o

Lonely rain...

My heart feels empty whenever it rains. Why I would react so badly to rain? Even though I used to be one with them. I want to cry, but not even a shed of tear would fall down on my cheeks. Only rain become my tears.

The sky....is crying all the times. But every grey cloud has a silver lining. Every despair will always have hope to return it.

Betrayal?

Lately, I feel like being betrayed by someone.......

Not that much, really.

=.=

Meh, I don't really care if I was betrayed. Since I will keep on the way I am. No matter what happens.

Because I won't be shaken over something like this. Ever.

The remaining time of 6th semester

It's been a month ever since my birthday (20 years old), and so much things happen around me. Life is not like I usually had. And I'm in 6th semester (final half of the 3rd year), a lot of stuff I have to struggle more, especially not to fail any more courses I'm currently have now.

And I realized there's a lookalike of someone I used to fawn over, all the memory fragments seem to piece back the nostalgia ;A; Seriously, I need to forget about him and focus on studies.

.........what the hell I'm writing?!

No more turning back from the past.

New semester = Final year (hopefully)

Yep, the new semester already started. I'm a 3rd year now. And I feel quite crappy in a few times due to the courses I took (it's seven, for goodness sake!) Again, I repeat my Calculus paper D: Plus with 3 Chemistry subjects, oh darn. I hope I can graduate on time so I'm not going to break the promise I made 3 years ago.

Novel writing...

Done the synopsis, but still have no ideas how to write yet. Even though it's an adaptation from my own manga =.=

I feel like screwed up and nervous

The main reason? Is exam results will be out tomorrow. And I 'm just realized that I screwed out in some papers, including programming and calculus. Aw shucks.

Damn, I'm totally worried about this seriously since I'm almost to graduating, if something happens when I failed a paper or two........

A step to the happiness

=3 Accepting new things (just pick the beneficial ones)
=3 Realize that no one is perfect
=3 Taking a step one by one
=3 Staying yourself
=3 Look ahead to the future and never turning back
=3 Letting go

Almost all I can do on the list, except the last one. The real reason is if I do let go of something precious, I would end up making someone sad or utterly breaking my heart. Besides, when you've already used to it quite a long time, when the time comes to release it........ yes, I would cry deep from the inside and put myself a mask to conceal the pain. Two possibilities: Being an extreme doormat, smiling always or distancing myself from the others in order to prevent the same thing happen to me.

Mood: Sad and depressed (from the inside)

From outside, I tried to smile, but I can't deny the fact that I'm still sad and depressed losing the loved ones. Have to be strong and keep moving forward.

Really sorry for the last few days. I'm just...not in mood.

NaNoWriMo - National Novel Writing Month

Hmmm...recently when I'm lurking around at the forums, I found this topic about NaNoWriMo, or National Novel Writing Month. Writing a 50,000 work of fiction in a month, this sounds quite interesting to me. The site is here.

Perhaps I can try to write a story during my semester break....

A chat within my heart....

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Hime, Kagura, Sakura, Kisa and Agito

Hime: *sighs* I feel depressed..... =_=

Sakura: Why is that? Is it about your secret crush?

Kagura: No longer a secret anymore, Sakura <.<

Hime: Kagura, you meanie. And this has nothing to do with him, Sakura.

Sakura: Then what is it?! I can't help you if you stay depressed like this!

Agito: Che, that woman doesn't want to admit that the fact she's losing her old self, am I right?

Hime: *looks down* Yeah. For some reason, I've no longer being the way who I am. Everything's revolved around me. Change....is it okay to follow it?

Kisa: If it meant to be a good way, go ahead. Change sometimes can turn you into a better person.

Sakura: True, Kisa. Hime, if you feel change makes you feel awkward, don't feel like that. Because you have a lot of friends supporting you. Except...you didn't realize it -.-

Hime: But, why I can't embrace those emotion? The emotion called "happiness"....

Kagura: *punches on the head* Don't be silly! Everyone wants happiness, why shouldn't you?

Hime: Because...I don't have the right to have it. I'm always a sore loser, a ditz, weak, can't even social well :(

Agito: Geez, then stay depressed forever! I don't care if you tore yourself away! Do whatever you like!

*Agito is now offline*

Hime: *weeps* She's right...

Kisa: Never mind about Agito-nee, she didn't mean to-

Hime: No, I'm the one who always mess things up. Always ruin everyone's mood and ends up with disaster! T_T

Sakura: Hime, listen. Not all changes are bad. And besides, if you ruin it by accident, you can always fix it back and make things up. Don't expect to change all of it at once, that'll make things worse.

Kagura: Exactly. *hugs Hime* Sometimes, you have to take things slow. And you can cry until you're finished ^_^

Hime: *sobs and sniffles* Thanks, Kagura, Sakura....

Kisa: *hugs Hime as well* "Never gonna give up"....is your motto right? Don't forget it. Always, always keep it even during hard times.

Kagura and Sakura: And remember, be strong.

*everyone is now offline*

Stalker? o.o

I don't know how to say this, but some people called me stalker because of my memorization of certain people I'm rarely talked with, know their birthday and such. Creepy things to say though. Seriously, I don't even want this kind of ability but sometimes it's inevitable.

Just don't call me psycho without any reason....because I never meant to.

Vacation of this year: Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam

After taking a flight by Airasia, I felt quite nervous to begin with. Since this is the first time I go to a country that uses language different than I usually use(minus Jakarta). When we landed at first day, it's already rainy and had to take the bus. But the challenge is not over yet, after going down to the final station, I can see how difficult to cross the road at Vietnam o.o Plus the shopping spree drives me insane(I had to keep myself calm not to get wrecked up).

Only 2 more days before I land back to Malaysia.....

I wonder if I can meet Yuu here?

Plans for this semester break... (mode: ^.^ )

Okay, since I'm just finished 5th semester, the break's slightly short since it's just a month. So, getting a driving license would be the option. And, I'll be going to Vietnam on 13th until 16th.

*sighs*

I really wish to hang out with all my friends again.....

Sigh and some lament....

I don't know why, but I feel lonely all over since most of my housemates already finished with their exams(argghhh WHY?!!!) And I realized how many people is really worried about me and everything. The last time I cried was a year ago. Again, I shed my tears in front of my college friends. Though it's hard for me to reveal my emotions, only for once I'm able to pour everything deep from my heart.

Sometimes, it's hard enough to endure all the hardships alone and even myself is keep bearing it. Thank you to everyone.

P:S: Oh yeah, only one paper to go before I can have my semester break ^.^

Note to self: Don't forget to drink Herbalife even if it's holiday. I'm hoping to lose my weight and motivation to keep on.

Yawnnn.....

Ugh, even though the next exam on Saturday, I don't have a lot of mood to study anatomy Dx This really sucks in a few times since Biology has been my favorite subject ever, but this is pretty atrocious. Heh, I'm still bad in nervous system especially the brain part :P

Geh, my weight slightly decreased to 2 kilos, but I'm going to keep up to work (I don't know fever can actually lose weight, but not really a good idea to do that -.- )

First paper - Calculus II

Yep, that's what I feel after doing it. 4 papers left and it's going to be really tough.

Sorry since I won't be able to call as much or messaging. Got to focus on exams and freedom after that! Yep, especially to Rie, Sagi and Lavender(you're also have exams as well, right?)

Going to redesign my lil' diary. IF you guys have any suggestions, feel free to message me ^_^ But please, only after I finish my exams at 9th October.

I just realized my birthday is less than a month from now Dx

My daily life schedule during exam week....

:3 Wake up early to study at the library
:3 Revising the subjects (especially the ones I'm not very good at)
:3 Make a study group (oh hahahaha, I don't think so, or is it?)
:3 Start doing past semester papers (oh s--- Dx )
:3 Cursing and swearing when getting stressed (Sakura: Don't even think about it)
:3 Get a plenty of sleep a day before exams, please
:3 Listen to music if things gone wrong
:3 Drink a lot of milk and eat responsibly
:3 Coffee, but not too much (since my head would go around the world if I take more than latte :P )
:3 Kill some time by reading manga after studying (oh how much I love to do this ^_^ )

....And I just realized my tonsils are still swollen ;_;

Dilemma before exams....

Yep, exactly what it says. Last Saturday, my body temperature rises up to thirty-nine degrees (ouch) Making things worse, it didn't change until midnight. And I ended up getting a shot >.< For today, I feel much better, except the piercing pains in my joints (=.=;) Luckily, my exams start at 26th.

P:S: Getting overworked after healing might not be a good idea after idea. And prevent too much stress.

Final exams -.-

MAT 238 (Foundation of Applied Mathematics/Calculus II)- 26/9
BIO 310 (Introduction to Human Biology)- 1/10
CHM 301 (Organic Chemistry II)- 5/10
CSC 317 (Internet Programming)- 7/10
CHM 159 (Physical Chemistry I)

Considering myself lucky for this semester, since I have at least 2 weeks to study calculus, plus physical chemistry (since this is my last chance to score this paper, goddamnit) And finally finished my thesis and such. Thank goodness it's not that bad (Kisa: Liar.) Oh well, I'm going to score well in this exams! (Sakura: Gee, if you just studied calculus better -.- )

Split personality = Multiple personality disorder?

I've been thinking over something like this, but is Kagura, Sakura, Kisa and Agito are my personality disorder trouble? Since during day I'll be Sakura and Kisa, but at night I'll turned to Kagura and Agito. Even worse, during my moody times, Agito would lash out quite frequently. Though she rarely done extremely serious damage to anyone, but I'm trying to prevent her from destroying things up. Hauu....what should I do?

Yare, I haven't posted quite a long time...

Ever since I'm into the studies, and putting up on my thesis, life's have never been much busier than before. Though I'm always got picked on whenever I blushed towards someone I liked(lecturers does not count, please). Though, the fact I've already forgotten the person I used to fancy with. It's already 2 years and I'm willing to give it up if I wanted to. Though, my other side of me would never, ever do something like that. Probably, my slightly yandere Sakura(or Kagura) hate it.

Strangely, I always being harsh on boys, but extremely nice to girls. Maybe I'm a tsundere, only set in different mood whenever I want. And Kisa, she seems to be quite making things hard for herself. As for Agito, don't ask why.....

Neet/Hikikomori?

I know what it means, but if I ever turned into one? I'm pretty worried about myself in a few times, especially after diploma. True, I can continue on to degree. But I need some working experience as well.

Sometimes, I'm gradually sticking on my Noel, and doesn't talk a lot.

Too damn busy this month!

A lot of work have to be done, tutorials and such....And it's really give me a splode in my head. So boring since I'm totally broke, and have to wait until tomorrow to get some money to return home. Yeah, I know it's going to be fun, but responsibility is the most important. For this month, I tend to get late to the lectures, and missed to send it on time(Nice job, Hime -.- )

And can't wait to watch the final part of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows(go me, I'm going to ask Rie-chan and Sagi-chan for this ^o^ )

Au au au....

What the heck is going on?! How can they actually ban Megaupload in this country?! Argh, I want to download a lot of stuff too...... no other choice but to use torrent instead(which considered okay)

I hope they lift the ban as soon as possible. And complete a hell lot of assignments and lab reports!

5th semester= 3rd year= A fresh start

Time flies out really quick, and I didn't notice it's June already. Well, being a senior is not as easy as it sounds. From a junior, sophomore and finally, senior. To grasp the future that lies within, I have to start over again(uh, not fully) by studying well, try not to be tardy again(happens a few times since I lived closer to the college and I would overslept) And I have to tell the truth that in fact I really like him. Sounds ridiculous but due to my tsundere side(thanks a lot for people that turns me like this)

I know this sounds odd, but I see a junior that looks a bit like him(maybe my imagination) Like a memory reminiscent that reawakens my past and everything. This time, I won't give up anymore. Erm, maybe not. My college friends plan to have a trip to Sunway, early of July.


Several occurrences inside me:

• I'm used to be a Type B tsundere, but slowly turned into Type A
• Still a kuudere(obviously)
• I can slowly accept make up and sorts(not too much)
• Sometimes I have the 'obfuscating stupidity' syndrome.
• I missed my besties(au au au...... T.T )
  

Sometimes, things can be quite unbelievable...

I was pretty worried at the beginning to see my exam results. But things gone different. I managed to pass all the courses.and scored in one subject. Maybe for some people it's just a mere average, but for me it changes everything in my life. The first time I didn't fail anything. Sadly, I'm still bad at maths and calculus(have a rough time with them)

I hope I can raise it much better than before :D

And I only have less than a week to pack up and return to the college =( It's less than a month, but worthwhile. Having fun and doing things up, and my sister's already graduated from her 3-year degree program and is going back home(I won't be able to see her for a while since she's back on 30th, when I'm back at 29th) Never mind, welcome back and I'm going to be a senior(3rd year).

I had enough....

I'm seriously had enough watching dramas now, since I can clearly understand the storyboard well and things are like, I'm so sick and really annoyed D: I hope I don't ended up hating it.

Need to upgrade my Noel....... =-=

I wonder how I can upgrade her? She's just only Windows 7 Starter, really want to change things up so I can put something inside.......

Sigh.......

Packing time!

Oh yeah, the exams finally over! And gone to the funfair last night, it was so refreshing =D Got a teddy bear from the games(I'm not sure what name I should put)

And it's time to pack things up to return back to my parents home, really missed them. Sorting, throwing things and everything that should be done by today.

Only one more left....

Yesh, the final battle has just begin, which is Organic Chemistry. It's going to be much more harder than before, and it'll be on this Friday! Go me, don't give up just yet!

After all of the exams, it's semester break time! (too bad it's just about a month TT_TT )

Lazy day.......

Exactly what on the tin says. I'm too darn lazy to study. And watched a movie with my sister. Though I'm not a fan of action stuff(unless it's anime), but Limitless seems quite oddly different. Ice cream with chocolate syrup on top for today's dessert =-=

Huh.....

Kadang2 letih gak kalo asyik study 24/7.......walaupun 3 subjek je, tapi rasa sangat2 letih.......

Haha, jangan sampai tinggalkan benda lain ye :P

Only 3 to go...

Oh yeah, I managed to finish Calculus and Bio, I feel much more relieved except Sunday since it's going to be Statistics(ouch). And next Wednesday will be Computer and Information Processing and finally, Organic Chemistry.

Sigh...... =o=

Calculus and Biology........ =o=

My brain's frozen from the studying(again)......And tomorrow's the exam day, I can't think any single thing how to answer it.....

So much confusion~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

3 hari lagi...

Tamatnya MUET, masa untuk study for the finals. And the thing I hate most is, I have two papers on first day! Oh crap, this is worse than I thought. I know I can do well in Bio, but with Calculus, it's bummer again. I don't know if I can graduate on time without making a single mistake this semester.....

Dah2, gi study balik sebelum masanya tiba wei....

Oh tidak...

Aku rasa aku dah salah buat time exam MUET(tidakk!!!) Huh, aku rasa aku dpt x lebih dari band 2 kot. Entahla, aku x tau apa nak jadi dgn result nanti......

Dan kengkawan aku ajak gi funfair until kali keduanya........matila aku macam ni..... TT_TT Ada sesapa bawak ubat x?

(Tu la, nak dekat exam buat benda bangang lagi, kan dah kena xP )

I feel like an idiot

I feel like an idiot when....

Sleeping over a long period of time
Posting something weird in the forums
I keep misheard things
Fawns over anime characters easily(curse my fangirl feelings)
I draw whenever I got mad, bored, sad and excited
I can't forget the person I fall in love with
I couldn't solve such simple problems
Overreacting in something
I'm weak at pressure and scary films

.....................what the heck I'm ranting about? Go back to study again! >(

Apa nak jadi....

Sabtu ni ada ujian bertulis MUET, dah lepas speaking(huhu aku still kaku dalam bicara TT_TT ) And the worst part, study week only have two days, the exams at 20th. No way, I'm still need to improve myself better than ever!

Dan carry marks for final sangat2 teruk, sampaikan aku sendiri x tau nak cakap apa.

Ha, apa lagi? Gi study la wei!! FB kat belah malam ok?!

Week of headache and insanity

Ugh....tests and quizzes, from Chemistry to Calculus, it drives me insane. And just to say last night is the worst. I know Biology has been my fav subject until now, but the quiz made my head fly away~(Kisa: I'm sorry....I couldn't remember all of it TT_TT ) Oh no, and today's are Chemistry(Organic) and Statistics tests. Please.....someone help me for this!

P:S: After Bio quiz, I went to the funfair at Nilai, and after 3 rides, I puked like hell x_x

Just ignore the conversation......

Extra: Happy birthday to my oniichan(2nd April) and my mommy(6th April)

I guess I'm not that kind of person.....

My body's really weak when it comes to hiking and jungle trekking, for example like what happened last Sunday I went to national park with all the program students. And I ended up nearly fainted. But the best part is, rapid shooting was the best event ever(by the term rapid shooting, it's kinda like a battle between two boats while shooting water to each other)

And at the end, it tires my whole body and had to take a day off from the lectures =_=

The first day of April...or it's the day you know what I mean.

Aku rasa hari nie yang agak teruk untuk aku, sebab mesti ada yg nak buat perangkap(april fool la katanya.....) Dan tengah malam tu jugak la aku kena tipu dgn kawan aku(sengal weh!)

Nabila: Hello Ecah...
Aisyah: Ye, ko x tido lg ke? Ko tau x yg mara dah masuk?
Nabila: Mestila tau. Esok Zaid nak datang KTT, nak jumpa sume dak AS, rindu katanya.
Aisyah: Hah, ye ke? Aku lari dulu boleh x?
Nabila: X yah la nak lari, dia nak jumpa ko gak.....sebab last sem dia wish good luck je kat ko, ni betul2 nak jumpa.
Aisyah: Tak nak, aku tak mau jumpa dia la! Aku takut la......
Nabila: April Fool! Selamat tido ye :D
Aisyah: Ye ke? Tapi betul ke dia nak datang?

...........................boleh lg lak aku tanya xD Memang sah2 aku kena punk'd. Tau la aku sensitif nama dia, x pasal2 kena tipu ._.

Next month of catastrophe

20-4-2011- MAT 183(CALCULUS I),BIO 250(SYSTEMS AND MAINTENANCE-PLANTS AND ANIMALS)
24-4-2011- QMT 110(STATISTICS I)
27-4-2011- CSC 134(COMPUTER AND INFORMATION PROCESSING)
29-4-2011- CHM 257(ORGANIC CHEMISTRY I)

No, just no. Seriously?! The final exams in just 10 days?! I couldn't believe my eyes(and my brain) to accept it. I guess it's time to get up and face the reality to achieve good results. Go me.

Yeah right, I should schedule my study time again.....
Everyone else: What the fudge?! ._.

Dilema pelajar diploma....

Huh.....exam x sampai kurang dari sebulan, kerja masih banyak. Argh, memang bengang gile weh! Dari mapping, assignment dan tutorial, semuanya kelam kabut sekarang! I lolly gag too much and procrastinating. It sucks. Tambah lagi dengan MUET(Malaysia University English Test) yg berlangsung pada bulan April nie =( Belum lg dgn kuiz, test and such.

And again, I'm not fully prepared for this D: Especially courses I'm bad at(if you know what I mean)

And in clumsy + procrastinating + hurry up mode x(

An unforgettable and will never be fade Sunday

So, last Sunday can be considered like that because......it's the sports festival(or Festival Sukan Kolej Teknologi Timur) closing ceremony. After I'm back to the hostel at 4AM, I had to woke up at 8:51 AM for the preparations to the stadium. Lots of commotion happened when to catch up the bus to go to the stadium. And since it's morning, not much people yet.......

Next, me and the marching team had to do rehearsals before the ceremony starts(on the afternoon). The weather just go quite sunny and clouds floating happily. When afternoon comes, the sun shines brightly like it's gonna burn x_x My feet felt really burning from the inside(the costume itself already hard, let alone the shoes) When it's our team's turn, I made a little mistake when the sword got tangled with the rope and managed to fix things up(Bummer) After that, my feet got really badly hurt and put with ice to cool down.

On evening, the results came out and.....we won the competition! I guess it's worth two days of sleepless nights and the overall champion goes to our team! Seriously, for the first time, the whole team were overjoyed and screams with all might for the win. And everything's happen during that time will always ingrained in my memory(since this is the last one I'll ever had in college)

Like a fireworks festival, it can never be forget.

Busy week......

Argh, since sports festival is getting in the crowd, lecture times has been ended earlier for the tournaments. And at night, I have marching practice(which tires me quite a lot plus blood donating side effects on last Monday and cold)

Not to mention to keep up with my tutorials, lab reports and assignments(I never regret taking science for my studies except Maths nightmare -_- )

Hoping next week will be better after all these ruckus.

I wonder if I am portrayed like this?

Odd fact: I get pretty excited when it comes to blood donating(dunno why)

Hujung minggu ini.....

Rasa sangat letih pada hujung minggu ini gara-gara LPPKP(sebab wajib diambil setiap semester, jadi hujung minggu tu jugak la x dpt nak balik rumah ;_; ) Rasa letih memuncak, tetapi kepuasan melakukan aktiviti dapat dirasai pada Ahad ni.

Kedua, kalo minggu nie x dapat balik gak, huhuhuhu.......sebab ada sukan kolej lak.......

Sah2 pecah rekod x balik hampir sebulan.

Yeah, yeah I knew it okay? *sobs*

Mature at age, but childish in attitude?

Erm, I'm currently 19 for now(going to be 20 on October), but there's something's still puzzling me(yes, myself). I wonder even my looks is pretty mature, but I'm still have my childish self, like always sulky whenever my friends tease me, have a childlike voice(in a few times when I'm disagreeing on something) and rather quite(?) playful.

Aww come on, we're not THAT childish, okay? x3

Sometimes it's fun to be a kid, but someday I have to come over to adult(but I'm still want to retain my childlike personality at least, or maybe being a slight Kuudere or Dandere)

And some people mistaken me older than them :o

About me(again):

• I have a rather normal appearance
• I'm a goddamn ditz and clumsy
• Lazy but smart
• My blood type is universal( type O )
• Kuudere + Yangire= ummm.....
• Aiiro(deep blue) lover
• Animanga lover
• Expert in games(mostly online)
• And a really sensitive person *sniff*
  

Kenapa...why...naze?

Tahun ni, terlalu banyak orang yg kusayang pergi........seperti:

Puan Nurul Azrina, penyelaras program Diploma Sains(AS120) dan Pradiploma Sains(PD008). Sedih, sebab selama hampir dua tahun di KTT, dia telah membantu aku menjadi pelajar yang berkeyakinan tinggi. Walaupun begitu, she's like my second mother to me. I couldn't stop crying when she said she wants to move away to UIAM as a lecturer. I have to accept the fact and move on with her final wish to AS120 students to succeed and all of us graduate at UiTM.

Secondly, my best friend Rie is going to move away from Cheras to another town. I feel sorrowful when I read her post in her blog. I wish we'll be best friends forever no matter how far away we are, the friendship bonds will never be broken.

I couldn't say anything at all......cannot be expressed by words either. I just.....couldn't believe it.

Pagi yang cerah.......tak!

Aku dapat rasakan yang situasi di atas menggambarkan keadaan sebenar diri aku. Nampak sgt yg aku dah semakin moody dan agak ganas........whatever, kurang2 xde la rasa terganggu sgt perasaan tu.....

PANDAI LA KO, EMO JE LEBIH WOI! AKU TAU YG KO TENGAH RUNSING PASAL SESEORANG NIE!!!


?@#$%#$%^&)^*#$*@#@#!#@!!!!!

Erm, memang tgh runsing pasal seseorang nie, tp dia dah xde, malas nak fikir...... so aku mau cari sesuatu yg boleh hilangkan perasaan nie, kalo tak lg teruk nanti sampai study dah mcm x study...............

Current reaction for now:

Baik korang pergi main jauh2 sebelum aku hempuk dengan............

Hujung minggu yg indah.....

Sebab apa aku cakap mcm tu?

Aku gi KLCC dgn kawan2 kolej aku(ke Petrosains je pun). Kadang2 best jugak keluar ramai2(cuma Mira je x dpt ikut sebab kekurangan bajet je) Boleh tahan gak la tempat tu, tp syg 4 jam x habis meneroka satu Petrosains tu. Tambah lak, Mirul nak gi kolej untuk sokong kontijen kitorang and naik ERL terus gi Salak Tinggi. Memang time tu sgt penat + sengal + mengantuk. Tapi syok la tgk band and nyanyian solo tu. Balik rumah terus tido(mandi dulu la wei!)

And for Sunday, not much things happen except completing tutorials, lab reports and the hell of everything need to be done. Huh.....online pun byk sgt distraction T_T Aku tersgt la malas smpi nak tido je sepanjang masa............

Amik gambar kat cermin tiada penghujung......(berapa jauh lg la......)
Harap2 hp kali ni x kena curi lg......(huhuhu)

Crazy week and month

Oh great, there's a culture festival and it's between the teams. I should consider myself lucky for not participating(hope they're not going to drag me at sports ;_; Especially formation marching) There's a lot of assignments have to be done, 2 lab reports, tutorials and sorts. Gah, this'll going to drive me more than insanity.

And nonetheless, my activity in forums, social networks, slightly increasing when there's too much status to read(I don't think I would read that), playing games and interacting with all the members like Plushie, Shion, Mew and such. Well, a little break won't really affect my studies, isn't it?

This weekend, my friends planned to going out somewhere good, like seeing miracles of science and marine life.

To my besties......Rie-chan, Sagi-chan and Lavender-san.

If I didn't message you guys like than I usually do, I'm really sorry. I never meant to do that since you know, college life does made us forget something important in our life. When we go to somewhere distant, we tend to make new friends, new clique or whatsoever it is. But never let them break our bonds of friendship.

Really missed you guys much that I wanna give bear hugs. Ever since we move to own paths, life's been much more different than in school. This might sound childish, but if we can turn back time once again, we could have fun and enjoy the days.......

If I left you guys earlier than expected, I feel thankful for everything we had done together *sobs* Time will keep ticking, like unstoppable flow of river. When time stops, everything around the Earth will stay still. When time skips, we will miss everything important around us. I want to cherish all of these moments.

From left to right: Rie, Sagi, me and Lavender(a tribute to us)

Luv you guys all~ :3 From your mommy,

Kagura Hime

Unexpected day....and never be forget.

I thought it would be fun to going out last night, but it ended up into a tragedy. My friend and I got hit in with an accident, the car crashed but nobody's got seriously injured. Except I nearly got flung out of the car during the the emergency brake.(thankfully, I just got hit to the front seat. I wonder if I got through the window, no one could even imagine that.)

And still,I feel bad to Mira who drives the car. I really want to help her to settle this problem. My other friends were shocked hearing the news, they immediately came to see if both of us okay. Thank you my friends, for concerning us even during bad time.

Tsundere, Yandere, Yangire and Dandere?

Before you guys ask what's with the weird words there, I'll explain what does it mean:

Tsundere- Looks rather cold and rough-talking from the outside, but kind and sweet from the inside. In several times, the person might show two different sides of this. Not really bad for me.

Yandere- Hard to explain, but once the person falls after a person he/she likes, they won't let go of the person or might do something crazy/scary in order to keep it by him/herself. And desperate enough to know whatever he/she likes(sort of stalker O_O )

Yangire- Innocent and cute from the outside, but once you hit the berserk button, only heaven knows what's going to happen next. They'll become super scary, crazy and oh noes, might kill too :o

Dandere- Simple explanation, this person might look normally quiet and silent, once you get close to him/her, the person become talkative and cheerful if you know what they like or found out their true color.

There are several parts of my personality fits for this 'dere' category ^_^

Kagura- Yandere(less obvious but she fits better to Tsundere)
Sakura- Tsundere
Agito- Yangire
Kisa- Dandere
Hime-All of the above(but mostly dandere and yangire :P )

Kanashimi no melody......

What happens if....your original self gradually disappearing? Like the times you like reading manga, slowly attracted with makeup and beauty? When anime become one of your favorite shows, replaced by seeing talk shows. And the worst part, quiet, serenity and cold heart is one of your trait, slowly changed when someone special appears towards you....turns into cheerful, sweet and talkative.

I can only cry inside my pained heart with all the changes happening to me. Probably when everything's turn upside down, I'm no longer find my true self. Why I can't keep being myself anymore? Does it have related with influence to everyone? Or when you fawn over someone else? It's still a mystery......

My final wish....is I don't want to lose my old self again....

New year=New semester

Ow, now things are getting quite challenging when lectures begin this week.Especially hard subjects like Calculus.Better get ready with the references and help from friends :3

And I'm going to get less on online stuff ;_; At least it won't affect my pointer again.