Mood: Sad and depressed (from the inside)

From outside, I tried to smile, but I can't deny the fact that I'm still sad and depressed losing the loved ones. Have to be strong and keep moving forward.

Really sorry for the last few days. I'm just...not in mood.

NaNoWriMo - National Novel Writing Month

Hmmm...recently when I'm lurking around at the forums, I found this topic about NaNoWriMo, or National Novel Writing Month. Writing a 50,000 work of fiction in a month, this sounds quite interesting to me. The site is here.

Perhaps I can try to write a story during my semester break....

A chat within my heart....

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Hime, Kagura, Sakura, Kisa and Agito

Hime: *sighs* I feel depressed..... =_=

Sakura: Why is that? Is it about your secret crush?

Kagura: No longer a secret anymore, Sakura <.<

Hime: Kagura, you meanie. And this has nothing to do with him, Sakura.

Sakura: Then what is it?! I can't help you if you stay depressed like this!

Agito: Che, that woman doesn't want to admit that the fact she's losing her old self, am I right?

Hime: *looks down* Yeah. For some reason, I've no longer being the way who I am. Everything's revolved around me. Change....is it okay to follow it?

Kisa: If it meant to be a good way, go ahead. Change sometimes can turn you into a better person.

Sakura: True, Kisa. Hime, if you feel change makes you feel awkward, don't feel like that. Because you have a lot of friends supporting you. Except...you didn't realize it -.-

Hime: But, why I can't embrace those emotion? The emotion called "happiness"....

Kagura: *punches on the head* Don't be silly! Everyone wants happiness, why shouldn't you?

Hime: Because...I don't have the right to have it. I'm always a sore loser, a ditz, weak, can't even social well :(

Agito: Geez, then stay depressed forever! I don't care if you tore yourself away! Do whatever you like!

*Agito is now offline*

Hime: *weeps* She's right...

Kisa: Never mind about Agito-nee, she didn't mean to-

Hime: No, I'm the one who always mess things up. Always ruin everyone's mood and ends up with disaster! T_T

Sakura: Hime, listen. Not all changes are bad. And besides, if you ruin it by accident, you can always fix it back and make things up. Don't expect to change all of it at once, that'll make things worse.

Kagura: Exactly. *hugs Hime* Sometimes, you have to take things slow. And you can cry until you're finished ^_^

Hime: *sobs and sniffles* Thanks, Kagura, Sakura....

Kisa: *hugs Hime as well* "Never gonna give up"....is your motto right? Don't forget it. Always, always keep it even during hard times.

Kagura and Sakura: And remember, be strong.

*everyone is now offline*

Stalker? o.o

I don't know how to say this, but some people called me stalker because of my memorization of certain people I'm rarely talked with, know their birthday and such. Creepy things to say though. Seriously, I don't even want this kind of ability but sometimes it's inevitable.

Just don't call me psycho without any reason....because I never meant to.

Vacation of this year: Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam

After taking a flight by Airasia, I felt quite nervous to begin with. Since this is the first time I go to a country that uses language different than I usually use(minus Jakarta). When we landed at first day, it's already rainy and had to take the bus. But the challenge is not over yet, after going down to the final station, I can see how difficult to cross the road at Vietnam o.o Plus the shopping spree drives me insane(I had to keep myself calm not to get wrecked up).

Only 2 more days before I land back to Malaysia.....

I wonder if I can meet Yuu here?

Plans for this semester break... (mode: ^.^ )

Okay, since I'm just finished 5th semester, the break's slightly short since it's just a month. So, getting a driving license would be the option. And, I'll be going to Vietnam on 13th until 16th.

*sighs*

I really wish to hang out with all my friends again.....

Sigh and some lament....

I don't know why, but I feel lonely all over since most of my housemates already finished with their exams(argghhh WHY?!!!) And I realized how many people is really worried about me and everything. The last time I cried was a year ago. Again, I shed my tears in front of my college friends. Though it's hard for me to reveal my emotions, only for once I'm able to pour everything deep from my heart.

Sometimes, it's hard enough to endure all the hardships alone and even myself is keep bearing it. Thank you to everyone.

P:S: Oh yeah, only one paper to go before I can have my semester break ^.^

Note to self: Don't forget to drink Herbalife even if it's holiday. I'm hoping to lose my weight and motivation to keep on.